Anger, frustration, not understanding, wondering, second-guessing, questioning, praying, hoping, trying not to become bitter…These are all things I’m feeling and thinking right now. These are things that are forefront on my mind. These are the emotions that are plaguing my husband and I these days.
It’s July. It’s the middle of summer. It’s 8 months from November 2008. We’re still in Osseo. We’re nowhere closer to knowing where God will send us then we were 8 months ago. We’re still waiting. We’re still praying. We’re quickly losing hope, wondering why we’re still here, wondering why we’re still in this holding pattern. Is there some big lesson we’re supposed to be learning here? Are we only here for the “fun” of it? Why isn’t God giving us answers, clues, direction?
It’s very hard not to become despondent. It’s very hard not to lose hope, not to become bitter. It’s very hard not to second-guess decisions made. It’s just hard.
We so much want to be somewhere, be involved in ministry again, doing SOMETHING!!! We’re trying so hard to do what is right. We’re trying so hard to trust. We’re trying so hard to make the Lord pleased.
Oh Lord, hear the cries of our hearts. Please release us from this chapter in our lives. Please send us out to the next place of ministry you have for us.